Joyce Meyer- "I think the perception of peace is what distracts most people from really having it."
So lately, I've been trying some new things that have helped create some peace in my life....
I have been actively going to a yoga class on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 6AM, and it's been one of the best decisions I've ever made. Physically, my soreness from working out and the stress my back and shoulders take from golf are way more relaxed than they've ever been- not to mention a new found flexibility that positively affects my golf as well. Mentally, it's a place I can go to completely forget about everything. I used to judge yoga as a stupid, Buddhist practice that was just a fancy way of stretching... but it's so much more than that. I plan to start active practicing meditation in my apartment because I know now how much I need some quiet time in my life. Other than golf and sleeping at nights, I can't think of any other times of the day when I have an opportunity to sit, breathe, and embrace life.
Also.... being a dude with high levels of testosterone... I constantly feel the need to shut my doubters up, and use outlets, especially Twitter, to tell or show people how successful I've been or display my latest accomplishments. I recently set a goal to do my absolute best to avoid that, and use this blog to publish my successes since not a lot of my friends know this exists. It's very HARD!! A basic human want/need is the desire to feel accepted or admired, so we always feel the need to tell people how successful we are- when in reality, it is annoying. If you REALLY think about it- the people we most respect are those that don't seem to care when they're successful. That's a person I will set out to be.
God bless,
GP
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
A New Beginning
Carl Band - "Although no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and create a brand new ending."
Wake-up call.
Life's lead me into different directions these past months. I love Mississippi State, but I feel a lot of the people here and in my program don't have the same values as I do. With that, it's almost lead me to become a separate person than I started out to be. Now I'm not talking about becoming a druggy, womanizer, or anything like that. The things I'm referring to simply aren't that big of a deal to some people, but it is huge to me.
So I turned 21 in August. Yeah, and as you're assuming rightfully, I started drinking. It was and has been a lot of fun, and I think it is an okay thing to do in a controlled manner; I've had a lot of great times going out, getting drunk with friends, but there's my conscience that always tells me the next morning: "Listen, this isn't who you are."
I don't have too much choice in who I spend my time around. The kids in my program are really all I see and because of that all I really know outside of school. They are funny and great kids, but man, there is so much negativity, trash-talk, and cussing going around. I can feel all of it just bringing me down, and even starting to respond to others in that way as well.
The worst night of my life started Saturday night. I was headed home from Tuscaloosa after a night of drinking followed by a morning of playing golf and my stomach just didn't feel right. Try to lay down in my bed to make the pain go away once I'm back, but slowly it becomes apparent I'm going to end up throwing-up soon. My prediction was unfortunately correct. I'll spare the details, but I end up loosing thirteen pounds in just under nine hours due to food poisoning. Just horrible.
In that moment of my lowest of lows, it hit me how far off the intended path I strayed. Looking back on where I was my senior year of high school, I would hate the person I am right now. I say I represent God and am a follower of Christ, but what good am I doing? What- I'm a Christian during the week, but I take time off during the weekends? What kind of crap is that?
So as I'm leaning over the toilet late Saturday night grabbing my stomach, wishing this awful night would stop, it hits me. I'm getting rid of all the bad stuff inside my body and starting over, so why not do the same with my bad habits?
Now that the sickness has surpassed and school is slowly ending, I have now set my mind on the end goal of improving my weaknesses into the person I would be proud to be. It will be a tough road, but nothing I'm sure I can't handle with a little faith.
-GP
Wake-up call.
Life's lead me into different directions these past months. I love Mississippi State, but I feel a lot of the people here and in my program don't have the same values as I do. With that, it's almost lead me to become a separate person than I started out to be. Now I'm not talking about becoming a druggy, womanizer, or anything like that. The things I'm referring to simply aren't that big of a deal to some people, but it is huge to me.
So I turned 21 in August. Yeah, and as you're assuming rightfully, I started drinking. It was and has been a lot of fun, and I think it is an okay thing to do in a controlled manner; I've had a lot of great times going out, getting drunk with friends, but there's my conscience that always tells me the next morning: "Listen, this isn't who you are."
I don't have too much choice in who I spend my time around. The kids in my program are really all I see and because of that all I really know outside of school. They are funny and great kids, but man, there is so much negativity, trash-talk, and cussing going around. I can feel all of it just bringing me down, and even starting to respond to others in that way as well.
The worst night of my life started Saturday night. I was headed home from Tuscaloosa after a night of drinking followed by a morning of playing golf and my stomach just didn't feel right. Try to lay down in my bed to make the pain go away once I'm back, but slowly it becomes apparent I'm going to end up throwing-up soon. My prediction was unfortunately correct. I'll spare the details, but I end up loosing thirteen pounds in just under nine hours due to food poisoning. Just horrible.
In that moment of my lowest of lows, it hit me how far off the intended path I strayed. Looking back on where I was my senior year of high school, I would hate the person I am right now. I say I represent God and am a follower of Christ, but what good am I doing? What- I'm a Christian during the week, but I take time off during the weekends? What kind of crap is that?
So as I'm leaning over the toilet late Saturday night grabbing my stomach, wishing this awful night would stop, it hits me. I'm getting rid of all the bad stuff inside my body and starting over, so why not do the same with my bad habits?
Now that the sickness has surpassed and school is slowly ending, I have now set my mind on the end goal of improving my weaknesses into the person I would be proud to be. It will be a tough road, but nothing I'm sure I can't handle with a little faith.
-GP
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Life
Anthony J. D'Angelo - "The most important things in life aren't things."
Life is a blessing.
Mississippi State has been the best choice I have ever made in my life. By far. I just feel so blessed to be in the situation that I am in here. PGM program, good room mates, great friends, great times, a caring university with caring advisors, beautiful campus......... Just feels incredible. I was filled with so much doubt and question first moving onto campus. Praying about it did nothing for me (I thought), and I was incredibly nervous about my decision.
I have started going out on the weekends for the first time in a while it seems like. There's a little place tucked in the cotton district called 'Ptolemy's' where all the PGMs go hang. Meeting new people is an exciting thing for me. In the past, I have just been so nervous and too afraid to be myself around new people. I was just locked in a box, and I wanted to let myself out so bad. Now, I have completely become the Garrett Powell that I want to be around people. My head no longer gets in the way, and I feel so at peace about it....... this is the thing that has stopped me for years- a constant road block that remained ahead of me no matter which road I took. I am incredibly happy and feel so accomplished by over-coming it.
Golf is going well. Just passed our 'Player Ability Test' yesterday by sinking a thirty-footer from out of the rough. I was incredibly exstatic. Today, however, it's not a big deal to me anymore, but this is a good thing. I love golf and love to compete, but I feel like I have matured enough now to where I realize my athletic performance doesn't need to dictate how good my life is. And I think that recent accomplishment tops them all. For a majority of my life I have left an athletic event either ruined or overjoyed after a performance. Sports ruled my life, and it caused me to live a shallow life. Although I am sure this is getting down-played in most peoples' heads, this is such a big deal to me. I feel liberated.
Let my changes and my passion inspire anybody who reads this- it's never too late to become the person you want to be. Stay devoted and you can do anything.
Autumn is almost here in full season, and I am in love with it. Just the cool weather, colors of the fallen leaves, the holidays coming up.... It's what I look forward to every year.
Life is good.
-GP
Life is a blessing.
Mississippi State has been the best choice I have ever made in my life. By far. I just feel so blessed to be in the situation that I am in here. PGM program, good room mates, great friends, great times, a caring university with caring advisors, beautiful campus......... Just feels incredible. I was filled with so much doubt and question first moving onto campus. Praying about it did nothing for me (I thought), and I was incredibly nervous about my decision.
I have started going out on the weekends for the first time in a while it seems like. There's a little place tucked in the cotton district called 'Ptolemy's' where all the PGMs go hang. Meeting new people is an exciting thing for me. In the past, I have just been so nervous and too afraid to be myself around new people. I was just locked in a box, and I wanted to let myself out so bad. Now, I have completely become the Garrett Powell that I want to be around people. My head no longer gets in the way, and I feel so at peace about it....... this is the thing that has stopped me for years- a constant road block that remained ahead of me no matter which road I took. I am incredibly happy and feel so accomplished by over-coming it.
Golf is going well. Just passed our 'Player Ability Test' yesterday by sinking a thirty-footer from out of the rough. I was incredibly exstatic. Today, however, it's not a big deal to me anymore, but this is a good thing. I love golf and love to compete, but I feel like I have matured enough now to where I realize my athletic performance doesn't need to dictate how good my life is. And I think that recent accomplishment tops them all. For a majority of my life I have left an athletic event either ruined or overjoyed after a performance. Sports ruled my life, and it caused me to live a shallow life. Although I am sure this is getting down-played in most peoples' heads, this is such a big deal to me. I feel liberated.
Let my changes and my passion inspire anybody who reads this- it's never too late to become the person you want to be. Stay devoted and you can do anything.
Autumn is almost here in full season, and I am in love with it. Just the cool weather, colors of the fallen leaves, the holidays coming up.... It's what I look forward to every year.
Life is good.
-GP
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Final Decision
David Russell - "The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which bridge to burn."
I got accepted to the Professional Golf Management (PGM) program at MSU recently so my decision is to pursue that major with my life. I has been a ROUGH road leading me to this decision. I love Auburn with all my heart, and there are certain people there who I also love with all my heart, but MSU presents me with the best opportunity for my future.
So why MSU and this PGM program?
1.) Upon graduation I'll graduate with a degree in BOTH PGM and business administration, so this gives me options.
2.) There is 100% job placement after graduation, and in this economy, I need all the help I can get.
3.) There are 24 different types of jobs available for a PGM major in a field that I have a passion for, and countless options for the business administration major.
4.) I realized that I suck at saving money...... So I'm gonna have to have a well-paying job to support my family the way I want to, and someone who graduates with a PGM major averages around $90,000 a year.
5.) I think it's no secret that golf is my passion.
6.) I will have a total of 5 semesters in the next 3 years interning at golf courses all over the nation, so it is a chance for me to spread my wings and explore other areas of the US.
It saddens me every day knowing I will never be a student at Auburn University, but I believe this is God finally pointing me in a direction that's best for me. The final decision hit me about two months ago on the way to my friend's house... and I fully believe that that moment was one of the changing points in my life.
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My dad always says how he regrets his college experience.... how he spent too much time partying and not enough time studying- yeah..... but the main thing he says is how he regrets not touching other people with his life. I plan on using this experience to represent my strength and my faith as strongly as possible, and maybe if I try hard enough, I can touch other peoples' lives.
-GP
Thursday, January 26, 2012
This Too Shall Pass
Skillet - "Today, I'm gonna try a little harder,
Gonna make every minute last longer,
Gotta learn to forgive and forget
'Cause we don't have long, gotta make the most of it."
Life has been pretty amazing lately, but today it was constantly bearing down on me. Stress with school, stress with golf, stress with relationships, and now a boat load of worry about certain people...
My golf game has gone to the crapper.... I have just been getting SO consumed with being perfect that I've lost almost all love for the game I used to be obessed with. IT'S JUST GOLF FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE. There's no reason to be getting so upset at myself.... life could be a hell of a lot worse, and I'm complaining about not performing well in a SPORT. I've never felt so selfish before in my life.
Recently found out that someone I really care about (no names or hints, sorry) has veered down the wrong path. She's convinced drinking is going to solve all of her stress and issues in life, and I'm worried for her. She's a good person deep down, but it's apparent her 'friends' have influenced her into developing a lifestyle that just isn't healthy. Although, we've had our problems in the past; I just can't sit on the sidelines while I watch her ruin the great things in her life (relationships with her true friends, family relationship, or even hurt herself). I've probably prayed more in the past 6 hours than I have in the past week. Hope someone or something gives her the strength to get through this road block. If someone reading this could say a prayer for her, that would be great.
>>>Music will always be a way for me to channel my emotions. Here's a song that's been getting me through today; I hope it does wonders for you like it has for me.
"One Day Too Late" ~Skillet
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNEC735juI4
-GP
Gonna make every minute last longer,
Gotta learn to forgive and forget
'Cause we don't have long, gotta make the most of it."
Life has been pretty amazing lately, but today it was constantly bearing down on me. Stress with school, stress with golf, stress with relationships, and now a boat load of worry about certain people...
My golf game has gone to the crapper.... I have just been getting SO consumed with being perfect that I've lost almost all love for the game I used to be obessed with. IT'S JUST GOLF FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE. There's no reason to be getting so upset at myself.... life could be a hell of a lot worse, and I'm complaining about not performing well in a SPORT. I've never felt so selfish before in my life.
Recently found out that someone I really care about (no names or hints, sorry) has veered down the wrong path. She's convinced drinking is going to solve all of her stress and issues in life, and I'm worried for her. She's a good person deep down, but it's apparent her 'friends' have influenced her into developing a lifestyle that just isn't healthy. Although, we've had our problems in the past; I just can't sit on the sidelines while I watch her ruin the great things in her life (relationships with her true friends, family relationship, or even hurt herself). I've probably prayed more in the past 6 hours than I have in the past week. Hope someone or something gives her the strength to get through this road block. If someone reading this could say a prayer for her, that would be great.
>>>Music will always be a way for me to channel my emotions. Here's a song that's been getting me through today; I hope it does wonders for you like it has for me.
"One Day Too Late" ~Skillet
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNEC735juI4
-GP
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Emotional Hangover
Jeremiah 29:11 - "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"
Now that the dust has settled and I have calmed down a good bit, it's time to be mature about this situation....
The fact is, the last couple of days have been pretty rough for me.. I miss having her around, and although, I know what she did was wrong, I'm still starting to regret some things I did while in the 'titless relationship.' Like my worrying.
She did some things that made me relate back to an old ex of mine that treated me like dirt and eventually cheated on me. Like she lied to me sometimes about the smallest things... like she'd tell me one day she told her mom something and the next day when I asked about it, her mom had never heard it. My thought process on that is, "Ok, if she's gonna lie about something THAT insignificant, what else is she gonna lie about?" Also, she completely changed personalities once I met her. When I got introduced to her, she acted like she was this party girl who wanted to have fun (she had a boyfriend at the time), but once we started hanging out, she was someone different. So I have to ask myself which one is really her?
Honestly, this whole 'no title' thing just scared the mess out of me too. I talked to another Hoover girl named Jackie a while back, and she didn't want the title either but still wanted to hangout. So we gave it a try.. A month and a half later I find out she's talking to two other guys from Spain Park, and when I confront her about it, she says "Well we aren't technically dating."
...The fact is, though, ALL of the above were most likely things that I over-analyzed. Simple situations that my mind took and twisted them. It got to the point where it ended up chasing someone I really cared about away.
I'm not a 'friggy-diggy' kind of dude, no matter how hard I want and try to be. I am probably the most analytical person you will ever meet in your life, and frankly, that's been my achilles's heel so far in school, sports, and now relationships. I promised her I would change before she broke it off, but I need to keep that promise. Except now I need to keep it for myself. No body wants someone around that over-analyzes everything, so it's time to just let go of my life and give all the control to God.
-GP
Now that the dust has settled and I have calmed down a good bit, it's time to be mature about this situation....
The fact is, the last couple of days have been pretty rough for me.. I miss having her around, and although, I know what she did was wrong, I'm still starting to regret some things I did while in the 'titless relationship.' Like my worrying.
She did some things that made me relate back to an old ex of mine that treated me like dirt and eventually cheated on me. Like she lied to me sometimes about the smallest things... like she'd tell me one day she told her mom something and the next day when I asked about it, her mom had never heard it. My thought process on that is, "Ok, if she's gonna lie about something THAT insignificant, what else is she gonna lie about?" Also, she completely changed personalities once I met her. When I got introduced to her, she acted like she was this party girl who wanted to have fun (she had a boyfriend at the time), but once we started hanging out, she was someone different. So I have to ask myself which one is really her?
Honestly, this whole 'no title' thing just scared the mess out of me too. I talked to another Hoover girl named Jackie a while back, and she didn't want the title either but still wanted to hangout. So we gave it a try.. A month and a half later I find out she's talking to two other guys from Spain Park, and when I confront her about it, she says "Well we aren't technically dating."
...The fact is, though, ALL of the above were most likely things that I over-analyzed. Simple situations that my mind took and twisted them. It got to the point where it ended up chasing someone I really cared about away.
I'm not a 'friggy-diggy' kind of dude, no matter how hard I want and try to be. I am probably the most analytical person you will ever meet in your life, and frankly, that's been my achilles's heel so far in school, sports, and now relationships. I promised her I would change before she broke it off, but I need to keep that promise. Except now I need to keep it for myself. No body wants someone around that over-analyzes everything, so it's time to just let go of my life and give all the control to God.
-GP
Monday, January 2, 2012
Everything Happens for a Reason
Thomas Fuller - "The day gets darkest just before dawn."
2012 has already brought some new changes to my life...
The girl I'm talking to decided it was best to break it off with me. I can't say I wasn't expecting it to happen, but was hoping there would be some way around it.
It all started a couple of days before Christmas. We had gone to her place like always to exchange gifts, but something didn't seem right..... we did everything we normally did, but it seemed like after a while she just didn't want me there anymore. So the next days follow.... even though her mom says I should come visit, she tells me that her parents won't let her have people over; she just so happens to develope a sickness that won't allow her to see people even though I know she's hanging out with her friends; and new years she doesn't want to have anything to do with me. All while she's telling me she misses me and really wants to hangout.....
I can't control the way people feel about me. I realize that. But what I will NOT take is people being dishonest and lying to me. So it doesn't necessarily bother me that she decided to end it, but that she handled the situation like a coward. There is no excuse for that. It became apparent she wanted to party and hangout with her friends so in a sense I already knew it was coming anyway.
Of course i still have feelings for her. She is an AWESOME woman, and I had a great time getting to know her and her family. But this has happened before, and if it ends the same way it did last time, I need to think twice before pursuing her again.
-GP
2012 has already brought some new changes to my life...
The girl I'm talking to decided it was best to break it off with me. I can't say I wasn't expecting it to happen, but was hoping there would be some way around it.
It all started a couple of days before Christmas. We had gone to her place like always to exchange gifts, but something didn't seem right..... we did everything we normally did, but it seemed like after a while she just didn't want me there anymore. So the next days follow.... even though her mom says I should come visit, she tells me that her parents won't let her have people over; she just so happens to develope a sickness that won't allow her to see people even though I know she's hanging out with her friends; and new years she doesn't want to have anything to do with me. All while she's telling me she misses me and really wants to hangout.....
I can't control the way people feel about me. I realize that. But what I will NOT take is people being dishonest and lying to me. So it doesn't necessarily bother me that she decided to end it, but that she handled the situation like a coward. There is no excuse for that. It became apparent she wanted to party and hangout with her friends so in a sense I already knew it was coming anyway.
Of course i still have feelings for her. She is an AWESOME woman, and I had a great time getting to know her and her family. But this has happened before, and if it ends the same way it did last time, I need to think twice before pursuing her again.
-GP
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